I’ve been meditating on John 17 today. It really is a mesmerizing piece of Scripture. It shares part of a conversation between Jesus and the Father that I can practically hear live. Jesus had peeps. People. A Tribe.  People that he cared about deeply. He was human, after all. And […]

Jesus peeps

I’ve read the entire book of Job in one sitting twice in my life. The first was on a plane. A window seat in an aisle to myself was the setting for my anguish and my desperate reading. I was pregnant. But not for long. The day before I’d been […]

Project: Suffering

Yesterday our community, and our family personally, felt the horrific loss of Sharron Cantrell, the principal of Spring Hill Elementary School, Case’s school. It was a shock to everyone. Case’s fave pic of “Cantrell.” I know that there are many, many people who feel the loss in a greater and […]

Life is short. Ask … anyone.

I was sitting in a terminal of Chicago Midway airport, surrounded by throngs of people preparing to visit family, take a vacation, or travel for work, when I had an unremarkable epiphany. God cares about every…single…soul…here. Every one. Not only that, He cares about every thought, feeling, worry, prayer, experience, […]


I’m kind of at my wits’ end with Christmas lists. Are there things we’d like? Sure. Are there things we need? Not so much. But still we go through the process every year of looking through catalogs, daydreaming, and scrolling to find just those additional things to fill our house […]

A Re-imagined Christmas List

I heard a song recently and one line particularly stuck with me. It said, “sometimes pain’s the only way that we can learn.” Maybe that’s true. I found my true self on April 6, 2009, lying flat on the floor sobbing for the life of my child. But what if […]

Who you are

We were not meant to have a mediocre life. We were meant to live a radical, blessed, edgy, open, screaming about the love of Jesus life. I’ve heard people sometimes being referred to as an onion, and even in the movie The Blind Side, Leigh Anne and Michael are each […]

I want to be a peach

It was like that reminder, the one that you stumble upon when you weren’t even looking for it. My friends and I (to say that, it sounds so simple)…. Well, my friends and I the friends that I never knew that I’d have   the friends from far-flung places who […]

Every step of the way

Why? That is a word that is heard often in the world of rare disease. It’s a word that is often heard in life. Why did this happen to my child? Why him? Why our family? Why would a loving God allow something this terrible? God spoke to me through […]

Why? Why my child?

Sometimes it is difficult to know exactly what Case understands and what he doesn’t. But tonight, I wanted to catch his full eyes and see if he could really intake and comprehend that I love him and that God loves him. And then, I said “Case, who made you?” He […]

Who made you?

I don’t pretend to be a great writer. I write because it is my journal and my release, and I write publicly because I hope that somehow anything or something I say might resonate with even one single person. But sometimes I don’t really bare it all, those deepest feelings […]

Just another lullaby

Sometimes we learn amazing lessons about God from our children. Unconditional love. Instant forgiveness. Pure joy. But sometimes God uses our own words to our children to teach us. We have a baby monitor to hear our kids at night. All three of our boys share a room and it […]

Omniscient grace

Who am I? I’ve always had many answers for that question. At different points in my life and in different conversations, I would have said: I am … a perfectionist.I am … a lawyer.I am … an organized person.I am … a runner.I am … a cleaner.I am … an […]

Who am I? I am…

I often lie in bed at night and either think to myself or say aloud to my husband “I got absolutely nothing done today.” It is usually because something unexpected happened – a snow day, one of the kids is sick, several phone calls from case workers or insurance problems. […]

Getting nothing done?